Smoke is filling my air..a vacant view of tomorrow is filling my eyes..a hollow cold core is filling my heart..

I'm tuning to some silly music while I'm writing this..

I don't know how to describe the feeling..is it anger..is it fear..is it remorse..?!!

I used to go to sleep every night knowing i have something to wake up to...now I'll wake up-if i do-to thoughts of what I'm gonna do next..

Should i search for a job or go after an old dream or just get busy with a hobby?!!

Mixed emotions..lots of mixed emotions haunt me as there's a lot of existence of different aspects melt into this phase and the past one..

Two mobile phones are dead calm beside me..and a big question mark is pulsing in my mind..

Phases are folded like old letters in my head..like life and death..things die for another to live..

Fearless is my heart..yet..i tremble..

What will be will be....right?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Imagine feeling this way..that someone else brings you back to life..

Imagine how emotions can make someone that essential..that vital..that's some one's giving and affection is that critical to your sense of existence..

It's hard right?

But it happens..when your soul becomes that dependant..

Mind says it's wrong..not practical enough..not straight..well yeah it's true..

It's better to be by the other side of the river when you make that affect on others and it's better to keep your feet dry while others drown to win a glance of recognition from u..

Strange concept and stranger feeling..that's life..some people take the lead...even in emotions..that's why they sing the feeling..the ache of need..the strive for approval.

We look people in the eye and say strongly..no..it's supposed to be this and that but the truth is that..matters of the heart are so beyond comprehension and control..

When you wait for a voice..a word..a single phone call or a touch..just to bring you back to life!!