It is like reaching in the TOOL box...when ever you want to fix something!! Forgiveness is the greatest tool. We all know that Allah will forgive us when ever we really regret and intend to be better…we count on that or else guilt would choke us... But we have faith in Allah's mercy. We have faith in Allah's forgiveness. That he'll take us back no matter what we did... We also experience times when we have to forgive our loved ones. When they unintentionally hurt us. Even if they do intend to hurt us...we find ourselves forgiving them...cause really...we can't live without them...we can't stand the thought of them leaving that great void in us.. We find ourselves not able to tell them,GO AWAY!! Even if we hurt or need more from them...who ever has a heart...it's very likely that it's gonna ache and pulse with joy.. And because love maintains life for our hearts we forgive... Sometimes we find ourselves confused about ourselves!! Because this is humanity...full of contradictions...you tend to want something you refuse... Then hate yourself for wanting and refusing. It is when you have to reach in the tool box and bring forgiveness into your heart... To fix yourself...forgive yourself...and go on and try to make it better the next time. With forgiveness...wars are put off before they ignite...at least the internal soul wars... Where there shouldn't be any casualties...any wounds to scar forever... No need to. Really. Bad endings are not a must!! We can forgive everybody and enjoy what we can...while we can...open up a little bit more...loose all rock hard conceptions and return to our SPONG mode... When RICH,LOVING,CARING and PEACEFUL experiences fill our lives with what makes us unique.
Before you try to complete...the missing part...the other half of the heart... Slow down and listen to this... I've always wondered how to complete what's incompleteable...how to raise the dead and revive the dried red roses… But the most difficult question was...how to find the missing part of the My backstage peaks didn't help with this issue cause the percentage of infidelity is around 99%...with no exaggeration... I've seen 3iathan bellah continuous cheating and sometimes multiple flings all at the same time...so; it'd have been stupid of me to figure this out from them... No, I observed ordinary people. Those nice cute families where the wife is a kind housewife absorbed in the kitchen or running behind the kids. and where the husband finds the only joy in carrying a paper bag of oranges or a water melon back from work to his kids…I fell in love with that kind simple picture ,which has no high expectations or other complicated demands from life.. Then another amazing scale hit me.. in fact that was the most amazing of all… The prophet's (PBUH)...pattern. Although he was married to several women at the same time. Due to tribal and religious reasons that I won't get into right now. May be later…although all that. He was the most loving, tender, amazing husband to alsayeda 3a2esha... Their talks. Their description of love. How they used to flert...how caring they both were for each other...to me...having this kind of romance centuries ago is the most amazing... So, can we be like them?? ًWhy??Why wouldn't we? Why can't we?? Because we are not prepared to get married... Marriage needs preparation of thoughts...senses...emotions...manners and a whole lot more...just to be ready to attach when ever your heart tell you ..He/she...IS THE ONE!! And never ever get married for any other reason… Pick right...pick religious, decent people…but only the one who you are ready to be your most unknown self with... Who completes the missing part of the puzzle? Who mends the other half of the heart...?
puzzle...the IT...the ONE...how to know for sure that we're ready to fall in and never out of love with our soul mate who will be the husband OR wife forever. If Allah wills, and we succeed in doing this right...
When they take advantage of your weakness and dance on your dead body... When they see your wound and scratch it deeper... When your tears call for help and they want give you a bat on the shoulder... When they play deaf when you scream...and blind when you wave... When they invest on your blood...and wipe it all over their faces... When you need them all and you just find their crumbs... When you start to give and they start to steel... When you try to reach their heart and they wouldn't give you but their feet When they open their arms for you to jump into their warm hug, and find a stab in the back When you're crucified and they fly around to feed from your skull When the rose is turned into a snake And what's true turn to fake That is my theory… 
When I started blogging I didn't even think that I could use Arabic My ideas other wise...i thought that the whole thing was not a big deal and I never checked my spelling or reviewed the posts... But the first time I felt like writing something in my own language felt so well. It was more me...and it was amazing to share it with all readers from the whole region and I found that great too...notice how many countries in the Arab world understand each other even with different accents... I think that English neutralizes things for us. Nasty words in Arabic looses it's edge when said in English...sometimes we allow ourselves to loose our temper a little bit in English...which we would never do in Arabic…using somebody else's expressions makes the effect as mild as possible. Now people find it convenient to say everything in somebody else's skin... It makes it less personal...it is stainless this way...so, when I hear someone saying a …not good word... in English I wouldn't find him as rude as if he said it in Arabic.. Yes...i express my self more freely in English cause it won't stick as much... But when I tried to talk about quran…I never could do that in English…it was so hard...not to translate...no...Just to feel. Every Arabic word in quran tells a special story and touches something in the heart... Languages are a great tool. Without it I can't reach my dear loved ones from other countries...without it I can't spread more wings... This is one of Allah's gifts to us... He created us different and variable so we could know each other and praise his will and his power and ability to create totally unique and variable individuals from the day he created Adam till the end of day...
language...didn't cross my mind...even though I'm not perfect in English ,I don't know how to express
I was driving the car by the nile...looking at a beautiful scene...of flowers and birds on the river side and the glittering water that reflects sun light when we came up with the same phrase of the same song that we used to listen to a long time ago..And we laughed to the thought and the memory... I realized how amazing she has been all my life...she was so open minded and absorbed all my flings...she even shared them and knew how to be my friend...she loved scorpions , queen ,pink Floyd and dire straits with me..She studied law with me...she switched to macrobiotics and back to choclate with me...and she shared my religious transaction with me. Prayed and studied and cried to Allah with me... She is the only one in the world that took my mood swings and the phase changes… She never took me for granted and never judged me...she knew how life is...how we suffer and how we change and evolve every single day… I had that in a way with few close friends...but never to that extent… She is so pure...yet never looked down on me...knew how I really am and waited for me to throw myself in her arms... I never needed a pass-book to reach her destination...i've just been my mistakes and downfalls… when every body patronized me…her eyes smiled, assuring me.
Today Egyptians will say no to Israeli attacks on Today Egyptians will demonstrate to let the world know that if they all shut up we won't...today we will rock our streets I expect violence in the Egyptian streets. But, so what?? We are actually used to that... WE are used to be suppressed and violated and that never stopped us... I remember back in college when the police used to throw tear gas bombs across the fences of the university...but the students were smart...they would prepare barrels full of water and play volley ball with the bombs so fast then throw it in the barrel to deactivate it... Those were fun days when we couldn't be more enthusiastic or excited about the cause... Today I will make all the wishes I can think of... I wish no one gets hurt in the demonstration... I wish no one gets hurt in I wish that 7izbullah will teach them a lesson to remember... I wish that amr mousa would be our president I wish all Arabic countries agree on cutting oil from the world I wish that Allah grant us his mercy.. 
بسم الله و الحمد لله و الصلاة و السلام على رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم ان شاء الله و بعونه ساشارككم ما اعتبره كنز الكنوز و القيمه الحقيقيه فى هذه الحياة. ساشارككم بسيط ما افهمه من القرآن و اسال الله العون فى هذا الامر الذى ترددت فيه كثيرا لشعورى الكبير بالتقصير و الضعف و لكن بعد ان شاء الله و الاستخاره و مشورة الاحباب ..استعنت بالله و سابدا هذا الامر من اليوم على ان يكون بشكل اسبوعى باذن الله. أولا احب تبيان فضل تدارس القرآن و تعلم احكامه و حفظه لمن استطاع: ٌقال رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم:: " خيركم من تعلم القرآن و علمه" "الذى يقرا القرآن و هو ماهر به مع السفرة الكرام البرره و الذى يقرا القرآن و يتتعتع فيه و هو شاق عليه له اجران" "من قرا حرفا من كتاب الله فله حسنه و الحسنة بعشر امثالها..لا اقول الم حرف..و لكن الف حرف و لام حرف ميم حرف" " يقال لصاحب القرآن: اقرا و ارتق و رتل كما كنت ترتل فى الدنيا، فان منزلتك عند آخر آية تقرؤها" و اعلموا يا احبابى ان هذه الدنيا دار ممر و ليست مستقر و ان خير الزاد التقوى .. سبحان الله الذى هدانا لهذا القرآن الذى فيه شفاء لما فى الصدور..صدقونى..لا يجتمع هم الدنيا مع كلام الله..كلام الله سبحانه الموجه لالبابنا هو الراحة و السكينه و الحفاظه من كل شر و سوء.. هو الحمايه و المرجع و المرد من اعداء المسلم..هو الحفاظه و المرجع و المرد من الهوى والنفس و الدنيا و الشيطان.. هو النور المضىء فى ظلمة الدنيا..فتعالوا ننهل من نعمة الله سبحانه و تعالى.. فلنستعد معا لتفريغ بعض الوقت و ان قل لله سبحانه و تعلم و تدبر قرآنه..و موعدنا الاحد باذن الله.
When ever I think about these days...the aroma of the sea fills my brain...I find my self inhaling as much as I can from the scent of the best days of my life...all the great things that I can all my own..My most own...happened to me in Alex... Alexandrians don't enjoy their city in summer. The visitors from After I went to school in Alex..." King Hussein of Jordon. Was educated their...oh...and Omar elsherief too... That ancient school is like a palace. With Greek architecture buildings and huge gardens with palms and swimming pools... Winter time made Alex sparkle. Shine with cleanliness. From waves and rain. Cold but not too cold. I remember days when we had little pieces of snow hitting the windows... And the first time I ever went inside a mosque was...almorsi abo el3abas...it is right by the beach on a higher ground...it has a unique feeling...I will never forget what it felt to pray there...too peaceful too secure. Yet fresh...as fresh as the sea... Near by the north end of Alex. You can take a boat to a nearby island called...Nelson...it takes half an hour with a speed boat to go there…and belive me it's heavens on earth...a very small island just for you...the boat would take you there and come back for you..dady used to take us there to swim privately and spend a great day..a day to remember..you can see jelly fish and strange kinds of sword fish on the way.. I'm going soon in sha2 Allah….returning to my sea….. . 
I have half of everything… From the moment I was born I've had half of every thing...half a heart...half a brain…half a will...i have had half of everything... And along the days. We tend to earn the rest of everything. We want to feel more. Understand more. Taste more. See more, walk more, take more. To fill the empty spaces within us... The big. The huge problem occurs when you fill up from the wrong well. From the crooked source. Something gets missed up really bad and if you ever awake to the fact that you mistreated yourself with the most horrible abuse ever. That made you fill up with something else but the true scent of unique humanity. It may be too late. Or too sad. Or too far!! Who will give you? Who will help you? Who will make it up to you?? No one can or would. It's your call. To pour out something bad and start refilling with something good and special... I know. I think so sometimes. It's not my fault. They did it to me…I saw every one going this way so I went... Yes. I believe that we are the VICTIMS…but we are the victims of the victims!! They had someone dragging them too… They had no helping hand too… They were abused too… WE are the victims of the victims but we need to stop that chain from going on and on and on…if we realize the profound truth that we were meant to be better people. With better lives and absolutely better resoloutions...then we must treat ourselves and decide that we'll stop the chain from happening... I for my self believe that raising religion in everyone from the moment he was born and maintaining a pure environment for them is a priceless key... I struggled all my life to maintain faith as I hoped for because I had variable sources. That messes up the mind. What is right and what is wrong is no longer solid. The scale is broken. The measures are twisted and the SELF can't handle all that chaos... Should I believe in my heart what I saw people do all my life. What I heard in songs and saw in movies!! Or should I hear what Allah says and the prophet teaches!! Things aren't as simple as clichés as. NO, RELIGION OFCOURSE... In reality...to have that clear vision of heart you must be rooted to the bone with religion that any other scale is repulsive for you...other wise you'd end up dancing on the stairs….w..7aba fo2 w 7aba ta7t !!
sarah Ramadan
السلام و عليكم
حزب الله
يا ليت لو أن هناك من أمثال مقاومة حزب الله و خاصةً السيد حسن نصرالله إنه مثال لرجل الشهامة و الشجاعة و الكلمة الصادقة. لم يقل شيئ إلا و أتمّه على أكمل وجه
فهو مع كل الضغوطات التي تواجهه و كل القصف الذي يستهدفهم و كل المشقات و العبئ الذي يرافقه منذ بدأ العدوان و هو لم يقصر على أهالي لبنان من كل مناطقها و قراها حتى نازحين المحاصرين في الضيع
و المهاجرين الآتين من مناطق متعددة من لبنان إلى سوريا و كل عادة شهامة السوريون و حبهم للشعب اللبناني لم ينقص ذرة واحدة رغم كل الذي حصل في الآونة الأخيرة
أنا أحد المتطوعين السويين في السكن الجامعي في دمشق إذا كان لديكم مفقودين بدمشق من اللاجئين فيراسلني على
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لنطمئنكم على أحبابكم
النصر لنا بإذن الله
تفاءلوا بالخير تجدوه
God Bless Lebanon and its familliessara89@myway.com
He was generous enough to share his worries about her since she was still fighting her sickness in the hospital. And as you must have been. I was so sad for her, I kept her in my prayers and I just loved her dear kind face that glowed with love..may allah grant her his forgivness and mercy and may he make the highest stage of paradise her home. I have a similar aunt and I'm far away from her too and she is in danger so I really related to all that was going on with him... To me. That was a true wake up call... And to me it meant among so many things...more quran than usual... And it amazed me how soothing quran can be if you increase your daily dose... So comforting...clarifying...you can feel a certain kindness and mercy slowely moving into your heart...it made me feel more connected..It cleared my thoughts regarding confusing issues... So7an Allah wa be7amdeh for the gift of the quran...we are totally blessed...totally blessed...we just need to expose our hearts more to his light... I invite you to give your selves more time with this amazing pleasure and I would also recommend sheikh...meshary rashed...
عن سعيد بن عبد العزيز عن ربيعه بن يزيد عن ابى ادريس الخولانى عن ابى جندب بن جناده رضى الله عنه عن النبى صلى الله عليه و سلم..فيما يروى عن الله تبارك و تعالى انه قال: " يا عبادى ،انى حرمت المظالم على نفسى ، و جعلته بينكم محرما،فلا تظلمون. يا عبادى، كلكم ضال الا من هديته..فاستهدونى اهدكم. يا عبادى، كلكم جائع الا من اطعمته..فاستطعمونى اطعمكم. يا عبادى،كلكم عار الا من كسوته..فاستكسونى اكسكم. يا عبادى انكم تخطئون بالليل و النهار و انا اغفر الذنوب جميعا..فاستغفرونى اغفر لكم. يا عبادى،انكم لن تبلغوا ضرى فتضرونى و لن تبلغوا نفعى فتنفعونى. يا عبادى، لو ان اولكم و آخركم و انسكم و جنكم كانوا على قلب اتقى رجل واحد منكم.ما زاد ذلك فى ملكى شىء. يا عبادى،لو ان اولكم و آخركم و انسكم و جنكم كانوا على افجر قلب رجل واحد منكم.ما نقص ذلك من ملكى شىء. يا عبادى لو ان اولكم و آخركم و انسكم و جنكم قاموا فى صعيد واحد فسالونى فاعطيت كل واحد مسالته.ما نقص ذلك مما عندى الا كما ينقص المخيط اذا دخل البحر! يا عبادى، انما هى اعمالكم احصيها لكم ثم اوفيكم إياها. فمن وجد خيرا فليحمد الله، و من وجد غير ذلك فلا يلومن الا نفسه." كان ابو ادريس اذا حدث بهذا الحديث جثا على ركبتيه..رواه مسلم. و روى عن الامام احمد بن حنبل انه قال: ليس لاهل الشام حديث اشرف من هذا الحديث.. 
"Infinite dreams, I can't deny them Infinity is hard to comprehend I couldn’t hear those screams Even in my wildest dreams" + I remembered those words when I thought about dreams... When dreams are supposed to be a good thing...a drive...somewhere when it's o.k to wish infinitely…I still remembered those words that describe a nightmare not a dream. All of us long for something we can not have. It could be hidden in the most lighted place, and it could be presented on a silver plate deep inside the darkness of our safe! Sometimes we don't even know that we're dreaming. Sometimes we wish for a dream to come and lift us higher than any ground... When we stay glued and pinned to earth...When the soul wants to spread its wings... When we say no to what agree is. And we nod to all the nos... We then sleep...sleep and let go of everything...the glue...the pins...the wings. The no and yes. And we have infinite dreams... Some carry the scare...the warning...the tick of the clock. And, some carry the wish. The hope. The answers of the knot. Don't follow the scare!! Just carry the hope... And don't dare to comprehend...it's a secret that is treasured for you to unwrap some day… A dream. Has changed all my life... How?? That's another story. 
As i sat in the unbearable heat on the most uncomfortable chair...i was looking of all those moms and dads who were sitting just like me waiting for their kids... All of us were waiting for our kids to finish their karate class. All of us were willing to go through this tiring session several times a week...all for the sake of our loved children... "I would bite him if he didn't appreciate me when he grows up" I thought... Then the door opened and the kids came running to their parents...the best moment ever...when all the ranting disappears and a big smile takes its place on your face. They come out jumping up and down with excitement...showing off how good they are and how great is the karate suit... And he would go home tiered and proud of himself... But this time...he walked in and kept staring at the TV...and said: "I am not happy" His grand ma asked him: "why?"...he said" again. I and my mom exchanged that special look and she said "yes my dear" He said: "I'm not happy because good Egyptians don't do anything" I had tears in my eyes and couldn't say a word...leaving it all to my mom and wanting to hear more of his thoughts that astonished me. Mom said: "when you grow up in sha2 Allah, you will fight them." He said: "no. I will call them to Islam first. And if they fight me, I'll then fight them" That kid is only five and a half. How come he has this complete figuration of what is happening and what is expected from Muslims???! I have no idea... Thank Allah for his great gift that I've always made sure that I talk about everything openly with my kids. But that amazed me...especialy when I hear every minute in the media lame words that drive me crazy... Will these kids be the upcoming hope for our nation? Will they regain the Islamic pride? Will they teach grownups lessons in manhood? I really would hope so... ' 
رأيته صامدا..قويا..متحديا و مؤمنا بان الله ناصره. اشعر بغصة فى حلقى و قلبى و انا استرجع كلمات المقاوم حسن نصر الله التى قالها منذ دقائق على قناة المنار. يعرف انه وحده و يعرف ان ما من حكومة عربية ستغيثه بل و ترفع عن توقعه ذلك.. قالها..لا ننظر و لم ننظر الى خارج الحدود..و لكن ننظر فقط الى السماء..الى الله. الله خير حافظ و معين .. تكلم و حقق ما فى قلبى من ايمان بهم و ببطولتهم و يقينهم على الله سبحانه لا معين و لا قوى الا هو. و بعد ان انتهى من تثبيت قلبى و تحريك همتى المتواضعه للدعاء و الدعاء و الدعوة.. ادعوكم ان تصلوا كثيرا ليس فقط من اجل البشر و الارض و العرض ..بل اساسا من اجل نصرة دين الله الذى يريد له العدو ان ينتهى ..و لن ينتهى ليس بقوتنا و لكن بقدرة الله العلى القوى الجبار. ادعوكم للكف عن الجدال و الاختلاف ..فبهما نحرم نصرة الله ..لنا و ليس لهم لانهم اتحدوا على بذل النفس والعطاء ..كل العطاء لله سبحانه. كان صوته القوى الممزوج باليقين هو آخر ما اتذكر ثم.. عرضت القناه لحظة انفجار السفينه الصهيونيه و ظهرت هذه الجمله التى تختصر و تختزل كل ما يمكن ان يقال او يحس.. إنه لبنان...........أيها الاغبياء
And that was it…the devil lost his place among the worshippers and begun his own mission of dooming mankind...espacially after it was over for him... His arrogance backfired... And for us to take the hint, we must remember the prophet's saying that...who ever had a weight of an atom worth of arrogance will not make it to paradise.. We...humans are bound to make mistakes...and feel the guilt, then ask for Allah's forgiveness...and may be repeating the mistakes...and that is expected...but as long as we know that we have Allah to cry to and run to and pray to...to make us clear again and pure again. To allow us to be among his loyal worshippers... What is dooming is to think I'm some big thing and keep blowing into the bubble until it bursts in my face...only...my face. And that implies on humans from the bully kid in school to all the dictators in the world. Unfortunately not all people find that greatness in their hearts...the greatness of being simple and true...the greatness of being weak and vulnerable...the greatness of not being that self-righteous arrogant who might say…ME..ONLY ME. That kind would let misconceptions rule them and crown them for life...and only when they are falling do they wake to the fact…THEY ARE WEAK AND NEEDY TOO!!. "HAVE MERCY FOR THOSE WHO ARE ON EARTH, so that ALLAH WOULD GRANT YOU HIS MERCY". Our prophet(PBUH)said. 
argued to Allah and said. Adam is made of mud and I'm made of fire…
Who would have the guts to catch the rope? Who would never care if he can ever cope? Who would be the one who takes the leap? Who would sundry his hands and weep? And who will let go? Of what's worthy though he'll know... That fear is no mistake That life is no give and take Who will stay raw? Drive it into my heart May be someday I'd start To jump right into the quicksand And know for sure that I'll find a hand
It is always that way. When ever I concentrate on anything else but the straight call for Allah. Everything starts to fall apart... Well. Not that I thought that the other matters weren't important. Yes they are. But I always needed to stress on what I believe can fix everything else that is ruined in our lives... The peace that comes with directing my soul to Allah. with alzekr..And the prayers along with shutting all the sources of distraction down... For a while that would do. That will clear the heart. And let me start to feel again... The sad numbness would go and the senses will be alert again to the greatness of being present with Allah... I felt that amazing feeling several times but unfortunately not enough... That feeling made my heart floating and my emotions flooding. Everything around me was heavenly... If you think that this is a dream. I can assure you it is not...
What's wrong with extra smart men? Always tend to be on the edge of being sick... Do you think that loosing control and acting like a fool is smart?? From great discoveries to committing adultery… is that a sign of intelligence or a sign of pure soul stupidity? I have to say that all my life I looked at men in a devaluing way. And later I admitted that I was wrong to judge a gender by the acts of some men... And I also have to say that I met a few men that I could call smart. Not ordinary smart...no, something beyond that...the wit...the edge...the originality and the knowledge that exceeds text books...that was rare and appealing... But why do women are always the fastest to discover that the perfect man is a myth? Cause she is the only one he'd unshield himself in front of. And soon she finds that he is that little poor child who is not so great and big after all. All he needs is his mom. And instinct speaks all languages when she runs to his rescue just like a fool... And to make Fraud even more happy. Maybe she needed the dad too... Put one fool+another=big big mess.. And miraculous mr.einstien becomes the discoverer of adultery among other things.. How smart is that.?. My opinion…way smarter than the six fools he spent time with and the fool of the fools who married him.. Never think and say it's emotions.heck no!!.Yes we can't control emotions ..But we can control our actions... And he didn't control anything!! Not once...not twice. But six times. Or that's how much did we know!! Young ladies out there. Don't think for one second that any man can see you other than the female ON you and if in a rare case he did see you as this pure, valuable human being. He will never ever underestimate you and start the well known scenario of. Sweet talk+sweet talk+make you pity him+more+more+more... If he is that rare pure kind...he will propose before starting the sequence...
. I used to see my dad in studios more than I could ever see him in his house... He was there all the time. A couple of studios were near by my house... And to me, it was torture that I had to go through. I never liked it there...again...i felt alienated the moment I would step in... From the second I'd enter the building. I would feel the chilling atmosphere. It is always so cold...freezing...and because the walls are isolated you feel shut in another world...day and night are equal...you will never know... And the people…sound engineering rule the scene. Every studio in the building have one or two of those pals... back in the eighties they had limited role in the whole thing but after that every one decided that he wanted to be upgraded to conductor... Any song could take from three days to one week to be recorded and mixed... Studios are the kitchens of the whole recipes and the lab of the explosive equation... The composer pays by the hour and he can be there for 48 hours.non- stop.to talk work sleep and do anything else.. The scene that just can't leave my mind was of the two S.E.taking dope right in the lobby in front of the passers... That just clinged...they were in their twenties and I was about sixteen and they would always appear to be nice and polite...and suddenly that was it… There is poison in the kitchen. Scared me to death. What is scarier is that afterwards while talking to my dad about it. Because he was trying to give me a life lesson on the run. I found out that most of them do…WHY? Was the big question...? I heard a lot of answers but the truth is. It's an ice ball. The more it rolls the bigger it gets... When you start devaluing a small sin. In your eyes...you will sure be dragged to more sins...bigger sins... And down the hill they go… **P.S. *my backstage memories carved who I am... It is healing for me to put them in front of my eyes instead of inside my heart... You may not like them or think why them But I tell you. There are thousands that think that this kind of life is glamorous and they fight to get into the pit... This is my message to them... DON'T
He was saying in his little whispers…may Allah aid me against the doomed devil...may Allah aid me against the doomed devil… The soft breeze that was moving his jilbab suddenly changed into a stronger wind, he was alert and looked back to see someone behind him... He faced him with the questioning look yet confident smile… The man with the crooked teeth and the vicious look told him. Why harm me ya sheikh? The sheikh said, it is you who try to harm me all the time… The man in black said, me...i never do anything...I fear Allah... The sheikh said, you run in my blood and you try to take my life over but I ask Allah to aid me against you and I watch out by maintaining faith and taqwa in my life. The man said, believe me I don't do anything. It is your self who harms you the most. And let me prove it to you... He pointed to the other side of the street. And said look there and see what your kind does to them... He left the sheikh to cross the street and went inside the pastry shop…the sheikh could still see him standing by the window with his evil smile on his face. The baker was working as usual when the man put his finger in the honey jar. Took it out and wiped hid finger on the glass. He got out of the shop and crossed the street back to the sheikh. He stood beside him and said look what man would do and the sheikh looked over there... In a while he couldn't see the trace of honey on the shop's glass but in minutes the tiny spread of honey turned black. A lot of flies stood on it and the sheikh could see a man walking into the shop with his dog leached to his arm. The dog spotted the flies and kept barking and jumping up and down. It was hard for the man to control his big pet. The baker looked so upset and started shouting, when the dog jumped higher to reach the flies and on the way down he pushed the big honey jar to break it into pieces. The baker couldn't take it he pulled up a thick stick from behind the counter and kept beating the dog on the head until he died. While the dog's owner was amazed by what just happened he reached in his jacket for his gun and bang. Bang... killed the baker... The sheikh shockingly looked at the devil next to him, yet the devil smiled and said. It was just a finger tip of honey…… Allah (SWT) said "Don't follow the devil's steps" And that is what we should do…to watch out from that deceiving first step. Cause one thing will always lead to another and suddenly we would find our selves hating our own being... Man is not as smart as he thinks. He is not as capable as he thinks and surely is not as strong as he thinks… The devil can open 99 good doors for you to trick you into the 100. 
The old man with the white beard looked so far away with his eyes half closed and his mouth mumbling something no one in the world could hear...He appeared so peaceful and pure.with his white jilbab and his clear face...
I don't think I'll be speaking about myself only when I say, that sometimes it's hard to get out of the pit!! You know that feeling. When you think that you are so trapped with no way out... For me. It shuts down my brains completely. I become paralysed...can't move away from the hole I dug with my own hand...I keep running around in circles without going anyplace... When would I see the light and manage to escape?!! Allah only knows... But hear this, with an open heart... Don't reach to people, as they are as helpless as you are. As trapped as you were. And as week as you can ever be... Know this. There are three things that no one can help you with... FAITH……….HOPE…………LOVE.. These three are hidden treasures, buried inside of you. So deep. So far... No one can reach out and give them to you. No one can search instead of you...they are your own...They need your heart ache, your tears and your grip to come to light. To shine your world and revive your soul... Some times it needs excruciating pain to shake you and wake you till you exceed your expectations and decide that it's time for you to sense again…live again...and reach inside for the treasure that's been hiding from you... Sometimes you have to reach the bottom of bottoms and taste the mud of your sins before the truth shines inside you and you dig deep to reach the essence of your soul…reach true faith.. Sometimes you have to suffer and smell the choking scent of despair before you seek the hope that fainted down your heart... And sometimes you have to cry and cry and cry ….and taste nothing but your own tears before love fills your air like the breeze of the summer sea... BUT sometimes Allah grants you what's more. More precious than the world and give you all of this with no suffering. No pain and no tears... With no reasons...or calculations...he may give you from his mercy and from his forgiveness what no eyes have seen, no ears have heard and what never occurred to a human's heart...
Is it o.k for you not to give? Give the love or receive IS it o.k. standing still? While roses die or gets ill Is it about the self concern? No matter heat.. No matter burn No matter hearts... where ever turn! Is love to take or... love to earn? It may be true..! Or is it fake? will the friend make your heart break? Is it so silly or I'm awake? Minutes it is... or long it takes...
I'll wash the tears.. and never make ..
I don't know what kind of people are they…? Every time I go out this week I find that the car has been hit!! In one week. It happened three times... First they broke the back light, then the back door and today the front door was actually squashed inside that the door wouldn't open... What is the matter with people?? I can't imagine that someone would cause any damage or harm to somebody else and then runaway as if nothing happened. I think this is as bad as stealing!! It's just like taking something that doesn't belong to me then escape... The lack of ethics is actually terrifying to me... Is it the same twisted mind that would hit and run and leave someone to die in the middle of the streets?! What about the people passing by? The neighbors. The doorman?? Are they blind?? What kind of a crazy world this is?? How can someone be that irresponsible and chose not to face his mistakes and deal with it?? Is that the honesty that our prophet taught us?? Yes, most probably I wouldn't have accepted any compensation…but it's not right for others to think that they don't have to fix what was ruined, as that is exactly what the prophet asked us to do... We should always want to give with no limits and the other should always prefer to not take. So that everyone would end up loving their brothers and willing to give for Allah's sake... I'm not pretending to be perfect. But I really would never runaway from any mistake... Or else I would've been pinned in place and never reached anything I treasure right now...
Not all my BACKSTAGE experiences were tragic. Sometimes I laughwhen I remember things…. *BEARS ON that same We woke up early and we found him waiting in front of the hotel ..We passed by a super market and he and my dad went in and returned with a big bag..Ofcourse we felt the squeaky movement of our stomach. We were hungry and it was a long ride and we didn't have any breakfast earlier...My dad held me the bag and we went yummy yummy...it was filled with marshmallows and mini muffins...cakes and these staff... Me and my two friends were sitting in the back and we started to open the stuff, to tell you the truth those mini muffins were superb. really great.. Oh...I didn't forget to ask dad and his friend if they wanted some.but they said no. no keep it my darling...I said o.k. and we went on and completed the mission...when we went through the gate...we drove for about ten minutes down a narrow road and yet we saw nothing. I kept looking around for any kind of animals and there was nothing, he stopped and I saw something on my left, between those tall trees and I kept moving back and forth trying to see something and suddenly I saw a black thing on my right and I felt the car jumping and something sounded boom!! It was a bear jumping on the car front. My couragous big daddy was terrified, laughing and astonished at the same time. As for that back seat, it was giggling non stop! Dad said quickly: Give me the bag. What bag, I said. He said: the muffin bag. That was strange now...Now he felt hungry. I handed him the bag which was almost empty. He took it while looking at the bear. Put his hands in. almost found nothing... He said. Where's the bear's food?? I and my friends looked at each other and I said: The bears ate them!!! *************************** *SILLY! I just have to admit that I was a silly teen. I made fun of my self too many times...why...I have no idea but I used to crack up at the strangest times. Making my dad super embarrassed! Again in After the introductions and kisses. It turned out that they were going to the same café we were heading too...we sat down and ordered drinks and everything and they started asking my dad about that accident that shook the field at that time...You know it? No?? o.k... It was about that singer that was attacked in a hotel and left to die!! My dad knew him too well and they started asking about him. I was sitting really bored...had nothing to do with this dull talk and that dull company...Counting the minutes, wanting to sit alone with my dad...and suddenly the husband said, I heard that he can't control his urination...does he really wear pampers?? And the juice I was drinking burst out from laughter. I thought that diapers for a man are damn funny!!...the sprinkles jumped over the table where the man sat and that made me laugh even more. I couldn't even say sorry!! They looked at me with this disgusted look and I felt the man would reach out and choke me...Ofcourse my dad was embarrassed and kept saying, honey. That is not appropriate!! ..What is wrong with you...? They said, oh we're late. See you and left me with the look on my daddy's sweet face!! For revenge..Dady knew exactly how to make me pay..He took me to the movie theatre next to the famous "lido" to make me see lethal weapon part three...but that wasn't it...he slept during the whole movies and wake up neer the end …so he got me to see it again!!!Twice at the same night…with a big grin on his face!! Wanna share silly memeories??I'm all ears..Even willing to laugh;)
.. They are very well known people and are idols to many people .. He is one of the greatest Egyptian scientists in And his main focus is on the natural medicine and returning to the prophetic medicen..He has made all the scientific researches possible on this matter and has discovered incredible discoveries that gave back hope to people with chronic conditions. He made natural medicines that countries like He is very well known of his encyclopedia mind and enormous knowledge... And the most amazing thing about him that he is one of the most respectable callers for faith in the world. And he gives religious lessons more gorgeously than any other specialized sheikh... Sob7an Allah. who gives wisdom and science to who ever he chooses. His wonderful books are sold everywhere and he is on the "mehwer" TV every Friday at *********** **Mohamad abd el7aleem abdallah: my mom raised me on cherishing to read..her sisters used to call her the book worm!! She wouldn't buy candy or anything with her money when she was little..she would buy books.. So, reading takes a very big chunk of our lives... I read everything I could find in her library and believe me there was more than enough... And after long years of reading some authors did cling to my mind. but literature wise..No one could compete with this author's style and delicate words... It is astonishing how he completes the meaning in the sentence..how he phrases it..he has the most unique way with words..It's almost like beading diamonds..no something more wise and delicate yet fragil..i could smell the scent of the fields or the gas lamp in his books.. But the last novel I read to him crowned him in my mind..it's called..The searcher of the truth..it is about salman al faresi..radia allah 3anh..the prophet's companion.. He phrases the real astonishing story of salman's search for the truth but in the most poetic and amazing way you will ever see in your life.. **************** Dr. ibrahim is my pride and joy..he makes me laugh,think,reconsider and cherish everything in my life..His outstanding personality and wit and knowledge is amazingly touching and teaching.. He is specialized in human progression. And self development. he is one of the most famous men in the world in his field..made outstanding success in He taught me how to take control of my life by positive thinking and by admiring the great energy that Allah put in humans.. Look up his seminars at your country or see him on "smarts way" TV. He is a delight to watch and learn from. I just thought I would invite you to get to know them if you don't or remind you of them if you do..
Allah (swt) said in the quran: "I didn't create the ginn and people except for worshipping me. I don't want giving from them or feeding. Allah is the giver. With the power and the almighty" Forgive my translation but this is mainly the meaning of the ayat.. Allah made Adam his khalifa..To maintain Allah's rulings on earth..(in So ,Allah created adam,then eve to start humanity on earth..and because we are his creations we were supposed to live by his rules..and that's why allah sent prophets and messengers each to his nation to ask them to worship allah the great and the merciful.. Except for Mohammad(PBUH) who was the final prophet and who was sent mercy to mankind..his call is to be reached everywhere to all kinds of people and along all years and centuries.. Allah gave us this great gift..islam..the sum of all religions with the miraculous sunnah that doesn't leave any aspect of life without giving us the guide line or the details on how to live the way that allah granted us in order to give us happiness and success in life and in paradise in sha2 Allah. Yes Allah created us to worship him..That is why working devotedly,honesty,dealing with mercy and politeness with people along with so many things is considered acts of worship..Just as praying and giving the poor and fasting. Taqwa..the fear and love and the good expecting from Allah. Is the fence that will secure our souls from corruption and maintain the pure life and hearts that Allah want for us. Taqwa, needs maintenance…that is the sunnah with all the details and sometimes the generalization that absorbs all the human variability.. Before we were born we did not exist except in Allah's knowledge. And after we die we will not exist except in Allah's mercy. And the life in between is the test. The crossing of the bridge. the journey that will lead us to heaven..Will we choose the bridge or seek paradise?! It's easy..ending in heaven is easy..And ending in hell ,allah forbids is also easy…it is a question of determination. what your heart is set to do…then the senses would follow.. Life starts with the shahada(saying and believing that there's no god but Allah and that Mohammad is his prophet)and should end by the shahada too.
و ماذا عن الرجال؟؟ لما واحده ست بتزعل اوى و بتتنرفز جدا..الرجال بيقولوا: يكفرن العشير.. صح..مقدرش اعترض لانه كلام النبى صلى الله عليه و سلم.. و صح برضه لان الست عاطفيه جدا..كلمه ترفعها للسما و كلمه ترزعها على الارض.. تانى..طب و الرجاله.. راى الشخصى ان الرجاله عيال و بيتئمصوا كتير.. مش بس كده..لانهم رجاله فرد فعلهم عنيف و عنيد جدا.. ممكن يشطبوا حد من حياتهم تماما..عشان زعلهم.. طب و فين التسامح يا جماعه..طب و فين الصبر على الضلع الاعوج.. و لا هى المساله عافيه يعنى؟! طب بلاش كل ده.. فين و التمس لاخيك سبعين عذرا و ان لم تجد فقل لعل هناك عذرا لا اعرفه؟! و اغلب الظن هو كده!! قيسوا الكلام ده على كل حاجه..مع كل الناس.. يا ريت نبطل خناق و نبطل عند.. النبى بيقول..و ما زاد الله عبدا بعفو الا عزا.. افهموا يا مسلمين.. و ارحمونا.. الاختلاف بيرفع نصرة ربنا لينا..عشان كده الامه حالها بالبلا.. لازم يبقى عندنا ادب الاختلاف.. ايه هو؟؟ لا بقى..كده كتير..يالا نفتحلنا كتاب..و لا موقع..يالا نسلم لله شويه.. كفايه قوه..عايزين شوية رحمه نرحمها لبعض. اصلهم نوعين..نوع مش فارقه معاه الدنيا تخرب و نوع المهم عنده ان هو ما يخسرش حد فبيلعب على الحبلين.. طب يا بنى آدمين..فين الاصلاح بين الناس..فين روح الجماعه..فين المسلم اخو المسلم؟؟؟ اساله كتير اوى...على العموم مش مشكله..اكيد برضه فى ناس كويسه... ما هو النبى صلى الله عليه و سلم....يالا صلى عليه..... قال:الخير فى و فى امتى الى يوم القيامه.. و آآآه من يوم القيا مه..بس ده بقى موضوع تانى خاااااالص!!
And the fact that some of them are truly intellectual and smart helps them with their flawed case.. To tell you the truth that always hurt me because I felt that human ignorance tries to hurt Islam when in fact they are only hurting them selves. But what I would really like to do is to think out loud about 7ijab and set that echo aside... To me 7ijab means anything but to think that the piece of cloth is enough...sorry...but it's not... 7ijab was not an order to cover the hair and that was it...no...It was to make women reconsider their affect on men and to maintain her human value by stop being a source of temptation.. Cause as a human being and a person Islam made her a precious self if only she would treat herself as precious.. And that will not be with the piece of cloth alone but with dealing properly with men and by respecting her potentials enough to make her realize the truth. and the truth is. There is truly no such thing as: I will use all my deadly weapons to attack the male instinct and still he would have to put himself in the freezer and treat me as if I were his mom. That is a myth...simply, a lie created to facilitate desire in an illusional mold... Don't take my word for it...Ask your dad or brother or husband to be frank and and to tell you what they think The only way to deal with men with a stainless relationship is by grapping yourself by a fist of steel...to control what is normal for women...wanting to affect…and help men with what is normal for them. Wanting to be affected!! And believe me temptations will not leave anyone alone, old, young...man, woman...singel, married...near or far! And the stronger you are and the more respectable you are...the difficult the test...you might as well be prepared to face criticism and sometimes hostility...cause people will never forgive you for being extra careful..Why??Because you'll be pointing a finger at them...clarifieing their weaknesses… Go ahead; say that I'm going too far. That I'm over reacting… I'll simply say. That's what I've seen and what I've thought and that is how I deal. I am hard on my self when it comes to these issues. And Allah (swt) made it clear that this is the human nature. That's why he taught us skills to handle this nature.this is also the only situation when running away is not considered cowardliness... He made it clear that showing the beauty,softening the voice,staring and anything more is not acceptable.. Allah (swt) made marriage as the holy relationship that gains it's preciousness from his permission and approval... To be the healthy environment where two souls become one..they become the home for one another..the mercy for one another .. And it will be a big mistake to go off the road in order to get home..it will only wreck that home.. 7ijab is a package of how to maintain purity.. And...Acting pure will not do..Cause it's your deepest self and your heart that knows how you feel and also will tell you what to do... Other than these..Allah only knows!! Why would I stress on this?? Mainly because I know that most ordinary ladies are not aware of this fact..but what's more important..especially to me..Is that even if we know it and deal carefully one tend to forget or overlook sometimes…unintentional damage is done all the time. And to me those incidents give me so much heartache, regret and blame. Things I just can't stand…sometimes saying something or doing something regarding this matter is unavoidable especially for people like me with on and off concentration… So it's always good to remind myself and others!! 
All anti religious humans have been talking about 7ijab as if it were to be put on our minds not our hair..they would make fun and use some contradictions within the human souls to attack it..
The Egyptian government will ban threatening blogs….. That was on the head lines..and of course they mean threatening to the national security.. o.k..My blog is not political, yet I still find that resentful...They want to detain the last freedom sphere… And what is more provoking is that they target religion all the time too...and although I'm not ikhwan which is the main organized religious group and a banned party...I am still one of the religious draft that my government fights all the time..i don't have any political affairs and I don't believe that getting powerful positions within the country will benefit religion.. But,I can not agree with their suppressive methods..and things are getting from bad to worse..they now attack from within their system..they attack judges..and the justice department was the last respectable aspect of our country..now they are being tortured only because of that..they just got used to being respectable and bravely said a big..NO.. And the last law submitted by the parliament regarding that matter was a big farce that history will talk about or rather laugh about for ever!! The judges asked to not be sent to assignments out from the justice department because that exposes them to corruption..and the new law said..no..we want you to be corrupted……………………… Twelve blogs have been shut now for opposing the politics in And I may not be one of their fans because I find their ways rebelling and offensive..but I am surely against banning their blogs and putting them in jail and may be abusing them.. Isn't it enough that we can't really do anything..?Will we be forced to shut up as well??
Ladies and gentelmen..Wellcome to my humble home at jeeran.. It is certainly a pleasure to see you all tonight. And it breaks my heart to see that some dear friends have missed this special party.. To put an end to your curiosity, I will tell you that this party is on your honors.. It is to regain your interest in sharing my marvelous blogging experience.. It is to let you know that I can't be the person I am without cherishing all my friends.. And to keep all my friends together I needed to know that everything is even better than it used to be! Please enjoy our party and help yourselves with some thing to drink and don't forget to taste the canapés. I did it myself!! ************* Have you had enough?! O.k. my friends..Let's have some fun and let's know a little bit more about each other.. Who knows? May be some will turn out to be closer than they could ever known!! I have some a quiz for you and I hope I can read all the answers soon. You'll find mine in the last comment. *fell free to name as many as you wish.. Ready..steady..go.. WHAT are the inventions that touch you the most??(Anything but pc and INTERNET) What are the meals that you enjoy the most?? Who is your role model in the whole world?? IF I handed you free tickets and pocket money, where would you choose to travel?? What are your favorite movies??(If you don't watch,plz say so) What are your favorite songs??(If you don't listen plz say so) What would you do with a million dollars?? If you can change your career what would that be?? What are your hobbies?? What do you think of Michael Jackson? What is your favorite chocolate brand? What is your favorite news paper or magazine? Who is your favorite author? What are your favorite books..Novel, religious and other wise? What is your best day of the week? Best month? Best time of the day? What beverages would you prefer? The most perfect era or memory? What are your hopes and dreams? What is your favorite act of worship? What is the language that you've always dreamed of speaking? What's your favorite color? ًًًWhere is your best place ? What's the most likeable valuable metal and stone? Do you believe in the star sign? Name a friend that you no longer speak to and totally dislike that? And finally state the five things that you hate the most… Dear friends. I will notify you of what your answers meant to me later…. Now, mingle..Relax..And chit chat and let us all have a nice evening…
day..we watch it on the t.v..it may move us a little bit ..made be shed a tear and find it hard to swallow the heart ache..but soon we get back to everything we do..
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