E-NADAHA !!
IT is an invitation to approach the core of your heart..to approach faith.
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Traffic jam ..my crazy day!

MAshy..
a day..like anyother day..probably as boring and as sad..yet crazy..
 
it started..well!! did yesterday end??
no..but lets just say it started at six am..w lessa ba2ool ya fta7 uya 3aleem ya raza2 ya kareem!!
Hell broke loose..all heart aching stuff ran on my rail way..grinding my heart..i couldn't stop the tears..i felt sad and betrayed and disappointed at my self..
i could never deal with my weaknesses..when ever i screw up i go crazy..as if i'm mad i'm that much human..and what drives me more crazy is that i keep doing the same mistake and keep suffering that i did ..and so on and so on...
 
Ghareeba..3ageeba..el nafs di!!
I took that fetus position and cried my self to sleep for one hour..that is so so tiering..can't belive how draining it is..
Fighting all kinds of contradictive emotions..known to humans..I PROUDLY WAS!!
tab3an batarya2!!
 
And i did just butterflies does..flying next to fire..loving it's warmth..it's light..attracted by the same flame that would burn it..and i did..just like a fool
What made things worth..i forgot my mom in all the chaos..7abebty wallahi..
 
WHAT A CRAZY DAY!!
I was screaming for help..no one seems to listen these days..no one..how ever you try to say..please..shout..cry..laugh..mock...no way..dead end..nothing..
so i'd think..ohhhhhhhhh..i get it now...it's my fault..i should cut some slack..
yeah..loosen up a bit...
WHEN  actually i'm loosining the rope that would eventually strangel me!!
 
And..lebnan..ruined?? well..it will be good as new again..i'm sure it will
We get ruined and to live..we must think that we'll be good again..
never say never...you made a mistake..ok..STOP..change the tape!!
back to allah..some do3a2..regret..back as new..and all bad deeds are changed into good ones..eh ya3ny??3ady!!
happens every day..everything can be mended..everything...even lebnan!!
 
WHAT a crazy day!!
All of a sudden..i remember something strange..
a famous poet..egyptian and a dear friend..called: baha2 eldeen mohamad..
He was a dear friend of mine..he thinks i don't remember his poems cause i don't listen to much music...
Well..baha2..i do remember..
اصعب حب
لما تلاقى اللى انت تحبه ما بيحبكش
و اما تحس
مهما عيونك تنطق قلبه ما بيحسكش
 
اقوى عذاب
لما دموعك تنزل منك ادام عينه و ما يشوفهاش
اقوى عذاب
كل ما تيجى تقوله بحبك يسكت قلبك ما يقولهاش
 
و لانك عايش وحدك
متغرب جوه حكايه
تايه مجروح مش عارف
خايف من اى نهايه
 
تبدا تضعف
يمكن يعطف
تبدا توهب
يبدا يخطف
 
فجاه تحس
ان اللى انت وقعت فى حبه
ما يستهلكش 
ما يستهلكش
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as for mr.x..fadi..fat7i for now...
he tried to blackmail me..i should stop calling him fat7i or he'll post my picture..
This picture:
well..fat7i..:):):)
 
 
I hope this is the end of my crazy day...
 
 
 
 
 

(18) comments
On July, 29, 2006 11:38 PM , Neverland
from Jordan said:

LOOOOOOOOOOOOL :D

Sho had ya fadi :D Mesh sayeb 7ada be 7alo!!!!! Manak 2aleeeeeel ya zalameh :D

The caller, 7elweh menek!!!!! but,
la tez3aly meny dear, I can't stop laughing :D


On July, 29, 2006 11:43 PM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
never land..that is the time to laugh ..out loud kaman..
eno,girls..let's have some fun..wwwoooowww


On July, 30, 2006 12:23 AM , Fadi K
from Egypt said:

I admit it , you got me!

Neverland once said: emshy 3edel , be7tar 3adowak feek!

The Caller , You are one of your kind. Fadi Says.

Neverland: wala eyhemmek , I will send you some Callerheads by email to scare liitle kids with :)


On July, 30, 2006 12:26 AM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
meen 3adowak ba2a????!!!!

la la la..sour looser??
caller heads...khalas ba2a,,adeema
caller says'


On July, 30, 2006 12:28 AM , Summer
from United States said:

Hello dear, hope you are feeling better by the time you read this note. just wanted to wish you happy days to come.just try to enjoy every minute of your life in a good way..life is too short to waste in misery and sadness. i know that we are humans and we cannot help but interact with events, people and situations in our lives but we should take things lightly , be stonger and relay on God, because he is the only savior for us and the only one that can solve all the problems in this world. i think i have heard that song before, who sings it? the words are nice and meaningful. take care and hope to read happier blogs from you.
Summer


On July, 30, 2006 12:37 AM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
dear summer..thank you so much for your kind words..it really means a great deal to me..
and because u care i'll say this:
i am just going through a phase..crossing a junction..it will pass insha2 allah..i know it will..and i'll be back stronger and more mature..i can feel things changing already..don't they say it gets worse before it gets any better??
well i think it's about to get better..and with allah's mercy and my friends support i will return a true caller again..
wait and see in sha2 allah..
i don't have any one but allah
no one can harm aor benefit..make us sad or happy but allah..it's all in his hands and i'm turning to him now..so..ed3eely

+ as for the poem..it was sung by khalid 3agag..several years ago.
thank u for coming..it's my honor:)


On July, 30, 2006 2:30 AM , eno
from Sweden said:

how did he get that picture ya rika.. ana mesh 2oltelek balash sowar 3alnet ya benttttt..!!!!!

whats wrong with u ya gamila?? i'll catch u in the morning 3lshan a2arrarek insha2allah...


On July, 30, 2006 2:31 AM , Karin
from Germany said:

Caller, dear ... you made me laugh a LOT!! You're GREAT!!!!!!!!!!! :)


On July, 30, 2006 2:39 AM , Karin
from Germany said:

Sorry dear .. I read the story after I saw the cute pic only!

Don't get that much distracted and uposet with yourself if you repeat a mistake! Do you think I don't? SURE I do ... and all I usually do is call myself silently (or loudly!) an idiot! Just consider ... Allah gave you ONE SET of nerves - and to waist even ONE for a repeated mistake is not worth it ... it's a waist as you need them otherwise!
Next time you repeat a mistake - laugh about it ... or do what I do - and tuck it away! We're all humans and even mistakes are important as we should learn from them - sometimes we make them again ... and again - TILL we got the point! They the "test" won't return ...
Just RELAAAAAX dear ... and take it a bit easier! Don't be so strict with yourself ... you're a WONDERFUL person!
Big comforting hug!!


On July, 30, 2006 7:32 AM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
Eno..3ady ya eno shwayet khoza3balat nafsia..
elsoora?? de 3amal elfanan el3alamy fadi..shofty elneqab??
tab 3erefha elzay de??
take care ya batta..eb2y ta3aly!!bloggy beynawar:):)


On July, 30, 2006 7:34 AM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
my dear karin..you are so kind..but as i just told eno..some psycho mess and it goes away in sha2 allah..
i love what you wrote about nerves..really made sense:)
hugs back


On July, 30, 2006 9:48 AM , Karin
from Germany said:

Dear caller ... I sense you're going through a very difficult stage. If I can help in ANY way ... please let me know - I'm here for you!
Big hug!!


On July, 30, 2006 3:02 PM , Fadi K
from Jordan said:

Eno: Ana mestasher hal yomein dol, deery balek kteer menny!

Kidding


On July, 31, 2006 5:38 PM , Loca Bonita
from Jordan said:

welcome to the club the caller :) mene menek ma baskotlo..

Fadi: don't through stones if your house is made of glass :P

Allow me to say, the caller, that although u've been on Fadi's side in the war, i passed by your blog every once in a while. and it was one of the most blogs i enjoyed reading. Good Luck and Take care
hope you'll change your mind and come back.


On July, 31, 2006 6:00 PM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
Loca..i realized now that i forgot to dedicate this victory to you..
u know..girls gotta stick together in the man's world!!

you are so nice to say that..forget about fadi now;)
and let's be friends..thank you so much..really.


On August, 01, 2006 11:15 AM , Loca Bonita
from Jordan said:

the caller: i have an evil plan! i'm going to keep commenting on ur posts, this way being a very polite and wonderful lady that u r, u'll have to keep answering my comments and keep on blogging! :D. what do u think?

thank you for ur dedication, it's true boys are boys and they are mean! we girls gotta stick together. Thank you!

I would be honored to have u as a friend.


On August, 01, 2006 2:49 PM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
loca..it is an angleic plane:)
i'm more than thankful and blessed by your compassion..u r so sweet.
really..thank you:)


On August, 02, 2006 2:41 PM , Loca Bonita
from Jordan said:

thank you so much, u even deserve more! u r welcomed.



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