I used to see my dad in studios more than I could ever see him in his house...

He was there all the time. A couple of studios were near by my house...

And to me, it was torture that I had to go through. I never liked it there...again...i felt alienated the moment I would step in...

From the second I'd enter the building. I would feel the chilling atmosphere. It is always so cold...freezing...and because the walls are isolated you feel shut in another world...day and night are equal...you will never know...

And the people…sound engineering rule the scene. Every studio in the building have one or two of those pals... back in the eighties they had limited role in the whole thing but after that every one decided that he wanted to be upgraded to conductor...

Any song could take from three days to one week to be recorded and mixed...

Studios are the kitchens of the whole recipes and the lab of the explosive equation...

The composer pays by the hour and he can be there for 48 hours.non- stop.to talk work sleep and do anything else..

The scene that just can't leave my mind was of the two S.E.taking dope right in the lobby in front of the passers...

That just clinged...they were in their twenties and I was about sixteen and they would always appear to be nice and polite...and suddenly that was it…

There is poison in the kitchen. Scared me to death. What is scarier is that afterwards while talking to my dad about it. Because he was trying to give me a life lesson on the run. I found out that most of them do…WHY? Was the big question...?

I heard a lot of answers but the truth is. It's an ice ball. The more it rolls the bigger it gets...

When you start devaluing a small sin. In your eyes...you will sure be dragged to more sins...bigger sins...

And down the hill they go…

**P.S.

*my backstage memories carved who I am...

It is healing for me to put them in front of my eyes instead of inside my heart...

You may not like them or think why them

But I tell you. There are thousands that think that this kind of life is glamorous and they fight to get into the pit...

This is my message to them...

DON'T

*BEARS

ON that same Paris trip a friend of my father suggested to take is to the open zoo outside of Paris...He was a musician and the son of a huge Lebanese singer. He was rather calm and somehow respectable. and that's why dad agreed to take us with him..us,yeh I had two friends at the time that accompanied me..

We woke up early and we found him waiting in front of the hotel ..We passed by a super market and he and my dad went in and returned with a big bag..Ofcourse we felt the squeaky movement of our stomach. We were hungry and it was a long ride and we didn't have any breakfast earlier...My dad held me the bag and we went yummy yummy...it was filled with marshmallows and mini muffins...cakes and these staff...

Me and my two friends were sitting in the back and we started to open the stuff, to tell you the truth those mini muffins were superb. really great..

Oh...I didn't forget to ask dad and his friend if they wanted some.but they said no. no keep it my darling...I said o.k. and we went on and completed the mission...when we went through the gate...we drove for about ten minutes down a narrow road and yet we saw nothing. I kept looking around for any kind of animals and there was nothing, he stopped and I saw something on my left, between those tall trees and I kept moving back and forth trying to see something and suddenly I saw a black thing on my right and I felt the car jumping and something sounded boom!!

It was a bear jumping on the car front. My couragous big daddy was terrified, laughing and astonished at the same time. As for that back seat, it was giggling non stop!

Dad said quickly: Give me the bag. What bag, I said. He said: the muffin bag. That was strange now...Now he felt hungry. I handed him the bag which was almost empty. He took it while looking at the bear. Put his hands in. almost found nothing...

He said. Where's the bear's food??

I and my friends looked at each other and I said: The bears ate them!!!

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*SILLY!

I just have to admit that I was a silly teen. I made fun of my self too many times...why...I have no idea but I used to crack up at the strangest times. Making my dad super embarrassed!

Again in Paris!! We were walking down the champs. Avenue and we ran into that very famous movie star and her husband the producer. She looked much more decent than in movies and she was very well dressed in a rather conservative suit...

After the introductions and kisses. It turned out that they were going to the same café we were heading too...we sat down and ordered drinks and everything and they started asking my dad about that accident that shook the field at that time...You know it? No??

o.k... It was about that singer that was attacked in a hotel and left to die!!

My dad knew him too well and they started asking about him. I was sitting really bored...had nothing to do with this dull talk and that dull company...Counting the minutes, wanting to sit alone with my dad...and suddenly the husband said, I heard that he can't control his urination...does he really wear pampers??

And the juice I was drinking burst out from laughter. I thought that diapers for a man are damn funny!!...the sprinkles jumped over the table where the man sat and that made me laugh even more. I couldn't even say sorry!!

They looked at me with this disgusted look and I felt the man would reach out and choke me...Ofcourse my dad was embarrassed and kept saying, honey. That is not appropriate!! ..What is wrong with you...?

They said, oh we're late. See you and left me with the look on my daddy's sweet face!!

For revenge..Dady knew exactly how to make me pay..He took me to the movie theatre next to the famous "lido" to make me see lethal weapon part three...but that wasn't it...he slept during the whole movies and wake up neer the end …so he got me to see it again!!!Twice at the same night…with a big grin on his face!!

Wanna share silly memeories??I'm all ears..Even willing to laugh;)